Sunday, 13 November 2016
I'm writing this straight from brain to keyboard because I can't be bothered to edit, sorry in advance if this a nonsensical mess xoxo
When I was younger, I had a very unhealthy relationship with food. In Primary school I was one of the few kids to go up at lunch time - not just for seconds, but for thirds. From the age I was old enough to get pocket money, I would go down to the corner shop and buy as much chocolate as I could afford, come home, and eat all the chocolate bars one after the other. At the time I didn't think it was a big deal, I hadn't even heard of the word 'Binge Eating'. While my sisters ate normal portions, I would have double at dinner time. I used to believe that I always had to finish my plate, no matter how full I was. This caused my stomach to expand bigger and bigger, meaning it took more food to make me feel satisfied. I would snack on 1,000 calorie sandwiches (homemade - 1/3 block of cheese, 2 slices of ham, 4 tablespoons of mayonnaise) and sometimes think that wasn't enough so add a packet of crisps to that as well. Pudding was not a treat, it was a daily occurrence.
I didn't know anything about health. As I got older, I gained more and more weight (about a stone a year) I finally started to admit to my bad habits. I became one of the typical 'dieters' who would eat semi-healthy for a day or two, feel really proud, and then just fall back into bad eating. All the while I was doing no exercise, and P.E. lessons were a nightmare at school, because I found everything so much harder than the others, which wasn't surprising given I was carrying an extra seven stone more than them.
Throughout University I stopped gaining weight, but I didn't lose any either. I worked hard to eat all the fruits and vegetables I needed, but I was still eating junk, drinking a lot, and did no exercise. When I got my first full time job I started to lose weight, not because I was eating any differently, but just from doing physical activity. People started commenting"Wow, you've lost weight, how are you doing it?" and I never knew how to respond, because I wasn't trying. I joined a gym and went one to two times a week, still eating junk, I managed to lose more weight.
Once I'd lost a stone, I stopped losing weight again. Excited by the progress I'd made, I looked into nutrition, when I learned the amount of calories/fats/sugars in some of my favourite foods I was shocked, and although I kept eating them, I started eating them less, and less. The thing that really helped was getting interested in the nutrition of healthy foods, like Flax seed, Matcha powder, Kale, Spinach, Fruits, nuts, seeds etc. I learned healthy fats for unhealthy fats, the amount of protein I should have for my weight, how many carbs, the benefits of cooking your own meals vs eating processed, ready prepared food. I knew about health, so now I had no excuse.
I have a ways to go until I reach my ideal weight for my height, but I know for the first time that I will get there. The progress I've made is only just starting to show now that I'm more consistent with exercise. I can run for the bus without getting out of breath, I can lift 150 pounds with my legs, I can be on the cross trainer for almost ten minutes (when I first got on that thing I couldn't make it to two minutes...) I've finally learnt how to motivate myself.
I will write a longer blog post on some tips and advice, but here's a little for now:
Bad eating stems from bad habits, habits take a long time to undo, so do it slowly, and congratulate yourself when you succeed. Small successes mount up to big successes. The best piece of advice I ever received on weight loss and being healthy was from my mother "Don't think of this as a diet, think of it as a lifestyle change" this still motivates me a lot, so thank you mum!
Saturday, 5 November 2016
I saw this a few days ago and it was much better than I thought it would be. I usually have high expectations of Marvel films, but knowing next to nothing about this character, I went with an open mind. This is stunning, go see it for the incredible visual effects alone. Doctor Strange is a funny, rude, stubborn kind of hero and the plot is a little different for a superhero film. I want to see it again!
Ru Pauls Drag Race
They put all seven seasons on Netflix and ever since I've been binge watching my way through all of them. For those living under a rock, the premise of the show is for drag queens to compete against each other in challenges to win the title of America's next drag super star. Not many shows challenge conventionals norms quite like this one, my favourite part (other than the costumes) is when the queens get personal and reveal the often haunting pasts they have had to deal with, and the struggle of ultimately becoming who they are with no apoligies. A must watch.
I heard this song on the Show 'Luke Cage' on Netflix and I instantly had to pause the show and look this up on Youtube. The lyrics, the rhythm, the style, everything is on point.
The Island of Doctor Moreau
A friend let me borrow this recently, I don't think I'm the fairest judge of this because I'm not the biggest fan of science fiction, however I did enjoy it. Its a very short read, about a man who is lost at sea and happens upon an island. I can't tell you much more than that without spoiling the whole plot.
I was not a fan of this. The 'plot' is really just a series of tiny stories from a lot of dfferent character points of view, mainly about drug use. There's a lot of vulgar language and graphic descriptions. Its a non-linear narrative that makes abosultely no sense, the only reason I read to the end is because some parts are beautifully written, and it takes a lot for me not to finish a book, it was bad, but not that bad.
I loved this manga! A friend got this for me a while ago but I lost it somewhere under my bed, so when I had a clear out I found it and immediately started reading. This is about a singer/performer who is what society deems 'perfect' she is the definition of shallow, as the story progresses you see the extremes she's willing to go to, so she can look perfect. The illustrations are beautiful, I already want to read the next one.